My subconscious can go F itself

[drwex]

It's been a lot of years since I literally woke up yelling. Last night was sufficiently bad I called in sick to work today.

Restless, interrupted sleep, high anxiety. The fact that I'm heading into the most stressful month I've had in a long time is not coincidental, but the weirdshit my subconscious is dredging up is... wow, I've no idea where some of that came from. I could guess, I suppose, but really I'd rather just have a couple hours of rest and some Brain-O for the left-over psychic detritus.

Comments

[badseed1980.livejournal.com]

Brain-O? Oh, if only! That and mental floss.

[catya.livejournal.com]

*hugs* sympathy.

Ouch.

[taura-g.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Hon. I'm sorry you had such a bad night.

It's a scaling issue

[drwex]

Mental floss is for the stuff one wants to pick out. Brain-O is for the wholesale chemical scouring. I'm really in need of that latter after the last couple weeks.

Thanks babe

[drwex]

I saw in your LJ that you'd had a lack of sleep night as well.

Re: Ouch.

[drwex]

Thanks, me too. I know my anxiety levels were pretty high Sunday and I had trouble falling asleep, but the stuff that messed up my dreams seems unrelated to the stuff during the day. I'd have to cross Freud with Cirque du Soleil to get connections between the two.

[selenite.livejournal.com]

Ouch. If it's getting that bad, maybe look at suspending some stuff? I'd still like to hang out with you in game but we could look at giving someone else a turn in barrel if it's being more hassle than it's worth to you.

I appreciate the thought

[drwex]

Raiding is a very mixed bag for me. It has HUGE plusses:
- I like the problem/solution challenge
- I like the regular core of our group
- I like doing things with Pygment

The parts that are negative all revolve around the organization. Having six people bail in one night was really pretty epic fail, and having that happen while dealing with my flaky router and epic child fail made things a lot less fun than they ought to have been.

If you're offering to organize things then we should talk.

[rednikki.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry that your brain is throwing stuff like this at you at an already stressful time.