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...is to write more. So I'm going to write some words now and maybe write more words later. I also likely will do at least one music post.

How am I? Physically healthy. Anxious a lot. Crying now and then.

Still unemployed. No serious prospects on that front - came in second on Friday for the last place I'd had an actual interview with. They were very nice about it, but second is still no job. I've expanded my job search outside MA for the first time since I moved here. Right now I'm looking at NYC and Philly areas and I expect to expand down to DC and then add Seattle and Portland. Pygment has vetoed Silicon Valley.

Beyond that? I dunno, maybe Vancouver and see if emigration is possible? Austin and RTP are also things I might consider but so much of my stress is based on the politics and one-third of this country that is actively hostile to me and my family that I'm not sure it would help to move to either of those places.

We're actually doing OK at the moment. My 'ant' brain is the biggest part of me doing the "told you so" dance. Pygment's work is good, and I've got unemployment so all the bills are getting paid. We're pushing off or cutting expenses as we can. I'd like to be able to spend attention on things that are not money-related - that would certainly ease some of the stress.

Life With Teenagers remains an adventure, though a different sort from the friends I see who have younger children (sometimes literally) crawling over them. Thing 1 is a troglodyte. We see her only when she needs something, usually food. That needs to change but trying to have that conversation with her is also a big source of stress so I'm avoiding it, mostly.

Thing 2 is bored beyond words and resentful that I won't play more games with them. I've realized the fundamental difference in our styles: they want games where they get to press buttons constantly. I want games where I get to think and make choices about which button to press next. Neither is right or wrong - just incompatible.

This week I finally finished a thing that I should have done like 8 weeks back. Inside me the "yay" voices are drowned out by the "see that was easy why didn't you just do that two months ago?" voices.

And so it goes. How are you?
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I do not imagine anyone reads my journal and does not think we ought to have at a minimum a single-payer option and mandatory paid sick leave. This entry isn't an argument, it's to document the hilarity.
The saga so far )
So that's somewhere between 6 and 8 problems, depending on how you math, four humans I've needed to speak to, and I've long ago lost track of the number of hours this has consumed. And it's only been two and a half weeks. But remember, folks, socialized medicine is bad and wasteful and our system is just fine and dandy and not at all wasteful.
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Most of my friends chat me on gchat/hangouts. I'm also findable on Discord, Twitter, and am in a few Slack instances. If you poke me enough I will log into Skype and if there's a specific day/time I can be convinced to go onto Facebook to talk with you there.

If having one or more of these things would help you connect with me, I'd be happy to give you contact details you don't already have. I also do very well with asynchronous chat - I don't expect people to dedicate full time to talking with me. Just message back when you can and tell me when you're away or ending the chat for the time being.

Yesterday people actually showed up for game and it was nice having other human voices around. I'd like more of that, please. It was really nice to talk about things like our kids and media we had watched and odd jokes and things that are not occupying 90% of the news.

None of this is normal; none of this is OK. We adapt.
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Home today sick with noro. Bad day yesterday, bad night, including two frustrating hours of sitting in an ER waiting room (in pain) and getting no help. I'd rather be miserable at home in my own warm bed than on a cold bench in a bright lobby - though to be fair they did bring me a heated blanket on request. Pygment was her usual awesome self. After two hours I felt better enough to walk steadily down the hall to the bathroom so I said fukkit and left.

This is far from my first rodeo, for which there is a story...

Once upon a time I went to undergrad at UPenn (aka Not Penn State). Student Health there was part of the Hospital of the University of Pennsylvania (HUP). At that time, and generally whenever I check, HUP is rated as one of the best teaching hospitals in the US. This means that you get a lot of older staff - who have seen it all and are pretty damned jaded - and a lot of younger staff. This dichotomy later will lead to the "two out of three doctors surveyed" incident, but that's a different story.

To tell this story I have to start Freshman year. Those of you who've known me in person know that I have a full beard. Back then, though, I did not. My beard (at age 18) was pretty scraggly, so I shaved. Often I shaved the sides to give myself what we called a "Klingon beard". Kind of like this dude - https://www.writeups.org/wp-content/uploads/Klingon-soldiers-b.jpg particularly since I had long hair at the time and there were several (original) Trek nerds in our social group.

Problem was that I was an absolute spaz with a razor. I'd nick myself on Day 1 and then on Day 2 I'd scrape it and make it worse. Scraggly or not, my beard grew pretty quickly. On a bad day I'd look like I had tried to go nose-to-nose with a feral bobcat.

Scroll forward to Sophomore year. By now I've learned that I can get all my classes stacked on M/W/F. This gave me two days mid-week to catch up on homework and assignments (leaving my weekends free for D&D and drinking - see "why do I never drink rum&coke"). This also meant that I only shaved three days a week, leaving four days for healing.

Then came November of that year; I distinctly remember I started feeling bad and left SCA Dance Practice early. By the time I made it to my dorm I headed straight for the bathroom and... just eww. In those days we didn't have the word "norovirus"; we called it the "running runs" because you were constantly running for the (gods help us shared dorm) bathroom in order to evacuate both ends.

After a few rounds of this it became clear that it wasn't just a one-time thing and I called Student Health, where the gent who answered... well, I could hear the grizzle in his voice. He told me to stay put, try to drink water or flat ginger ale, and come in when student health opened at 7. This is also where I learned that when your mouth tastes like metal you are really dehydrated.

So I did the shelter-in-place thing, didn't sleep at all, and dragged my exhausted ass down to SH before it opened. They had unlocked the outer airlock door but not the inner so I could at least stand in a foyer out of the cold. And I must have passed out briefly because I leaned up against the locked inner door. The next thing I know I am literally _falling_ into Student Health because the junior resident apparently decided I was giving him a hard time about being five minutes late and just unlocked the door and stepped back.

Once he realized his mistake he was all the apologetic and gave me many good drugs, including my first experience with a suppository. Turns out that if you want a medication delivered to the lower colon this is a super-effective way to do that. A couple hours later I was sufficiently hydrated and under control to drag my ass back to my dorm and pass out. I slept through most of Wednesday, waking up long enough to shower and drink a little water then go back to sleep. By Friday I was able to manage some Saltines and felt pretty good about that.

Then it was the weekend and by the time Monday rolled around again I looked in the mirror and I had a full week's worth of beard, which was actually pretty good and past the scraggly stage. I threw my razor in the trash and haven't shaved since.

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I hope you've enjoyed this story and I have a question for you. If you are the sort of person who kisses people who shave, does stubble bother you? I find it irritating as heck, but maybe it's a thing you get used to?
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I commented yesterday to MizA that I felt like I wanted to blog more but clearly wasn't making the time for it. So I'll start with a small update and then maybe go back and try to pick up some other stuff. Don't get too excited.

I've been having moderately bad insomnia. Last night was one of the worst in a while. I came home tired and napped from about 6-7:30 (1) then did my evening things and was feeling tired enough around 11:30 to go to bed. Then I woke up, feeling like "OK, great!" and noticed it was 1 AM.

Sigh. Another two wakeups and by the time the alarm goes off for actually getting up I'm a wreck. Again.

I don't know what's pushing these buttons. We got a new mattress which is definitely better for my back. Maybe it's the unseasonably warm weather? Being overwarm and too allergic isn't fun under any circumstances, but I dunno.

Also on the radar - shoulder problems. I've been having some non-trivial pain in my right shoulder (much less so in my left. Last Friday I went to the Ortho who did some poking and some x-rays and diagnosed a bicep tendon inflammation. I do have spurring in the shoulder - not a surprise given that I have spurring in lots of other places - but that doesn't seem to be the cause. I'm taking a big anti-inflammatory and it seems to be getting better. Yay no surgery. If the 'scrip I'm on doesn't fix the problem the likely next step is a cortisone shot, which I'd rather avoid thankyewverymuch.

So, yeah. Minor annoying physical things are annoying. And I'm going to hit "post" so I can say I did get something written.

(1) somewhere along the way I developed this weird ability to nap for just about exactly 90 minutes. I used to think this was because I was lining up with a typical 90-minute sleep cycle (https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/between-you-and-me/201307/your-sleep-cycle-revealed) but this time - like some others - I woke up mid-dream. I have no idea.
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Blogging this mostly for my own reference. Starting with my annual physical in January I've been attending to various medical grr-argh things and trying to do something about some of them. If any of them turn serious I'll post more. Generally I'm not dying any faster than expected.
medical bullet points )
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Yesterday I went in for an ultrasound that checked for new stones and also to see if my ureter had healed properly.

No stones, yes healed. Whew.

I will need another ultrasound in 6 months as a final check to see that stones are not forming but if that one is clear and I'm symptom-free (by then it will have been a year) we'll call this a one-time thing and be done with it. Yay! I'm likely to try keeping my diet modifications though the doc would like me to be even more low-protein than I've been.
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As I mentioned in the last entry, one of the side effects of dusting the stone was that they didn't get enough for a lab sample. That means we don't really know what caused it, so there's no sensible medical intervention. Instead, we get a series of diet recommendations that are generally seen as effective against stones of all kinds. Herewith, in bullet-point form:

  • Increase urine volume. A fancy form of "drink more water. No, really, more than that." Some of the associated literature gets very specific, including a suggestion that if you don't have to get up in the middle of the night to go pee you're not drinking enough. That's a hard no for me because although I can do it if need be I definitely get much worse sleep if I'm interrupted and sometimes I can't even get back to sleep at all. My sleep is already bad enough, let's not make it worse. They also suggest one 2-L bottle of water per workday, which is a lot more than I'm currently going through.

    Among the tips for increasing water intake are having a glass at "transitional times" like upon waking, before leaving the house, when arriving at work, after using the restroom. Add frozen bits of lemon, lime or orange in place of ice cubes both for flavor and to acidify urine. Choose moist foods over dried - cooked rice, for example, carries water about equal to its grain weight.

    Interesting side note - it's suggested to avoid grapefruit juice. Since other citrus is encouraged I'm not sure why this is. Have to look into that.

  • Consume adequate calcium. Despite some stones being formed from calcium deposits, it's not advised to avoid or reduce calcium intake from food. Calcium supplements are disrecommended. Considering how many Tums I chew in a given week that's going to be a challenge. One source says if you're going to take them, take with food - the problem is that I take them to control reflux, which causes me not to eat.

  • Decrease sodium. Generally good advice, but particularly here excess sodium tends to go out in your urine and it does so by binding to a lot of calcium. If you get calcium stones this is a primary formation pathway. As with other discussions of dietary sodium, it's the hidden sources that get you. Obvious things like salty snacks aren't as problematic as packaged foods, sports drinks, and the like that have tons of sodium we don't recognize.

  • Decrease protein intake. I mentioned this early on. The most recent literature I was given differentiates meat protein (which should be limited) from dairy or vegetable protein, which are apparently not sources of stone formation. I don't understand why that is, but there you go.

  • Watch out for oxalates. That's mostly spinach, rhubarb, almonds, and miso soup though there are oxalates in lots of things. Spinach is the biggest culprit, by a large margin, which is unfortunate since it's my main source of leafy greens. Bother.

    drwex: (Troll)
    On Tuesday I went in for the second try at the stone-removal operation. It was successful - the stone is dust. I have a much smaller piece of plastic in my body now and an appointment for next week to get it removed. After that, follow the diet and hope.
    Details, nothing particularly awful here but probably not widely interesting )
    Now if I can just remember to stay properly hydrated.
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    Health update. Nothing particularly icky. tl;dr we're in the final week before surgery.
    interesting mostly to me bits of medical knowledge )

    Surgery is set for the 17th; I'll call next Monday to get more precise timing. Cross your fingers, say prayers if that's your thing, and wish me well. I'd really like not to roll badly this time.
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    tl;dr This is normal. Everything will be fine. We just have to do it All Over Again. I haz a new surgery date in mid-July.

    in case people don't want medical stuff )
    With reasonable luck this'll be my last health update for about 7 weeks.
    drwex: (whorfin)
    Well, at least I have more data now, though I'm not super happy about the situation.
    It's medical stuff and some people don't like that, so here's a cut )
    drwex: (Troll)
    Next medical update. This one has some unpleasantness in it so we'll be cutting the whole thing.

    tl;dr I'm home, stable, and not sure what my week is going to look like.
    so what, exactly, happened? )
    So, anyone got a car and not busy on Tuesday? They won't let me drive myself home nor call a cab/Lyft - has to be a "responsible person".
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    No, seriously. This is an update on my undesired passenger so ...
    I'll cut this for the medically squeamish )

    If this doesn't make you cringe and want to cross your legs then YKIOK but YKINMK.
    drwex: (Troll)
    For background see this entry: http://drwex.livejournal.com/611980.html

    After two weeks of wearing the surgical "shoe" - basically a board strapped to my foot - and showering with said foot in a plastic bag I went for my follow-up. 48 hours ahead I got x-rays. I'm now back in normal shoes that have inserts and I need to buy new sneakers.

    The most lasting effects were from not being able to walk normally for two weeks, which left my hips and back in pretty bad shape. I've been slowly getting back to walking - on Saturday I did an unintentionally intense hike uphill through dense underbrush for about 2 miles and survived that OK (though I needed a nap and most of Sunday off from walking). Monday I walked about another 3 miles around WPI campus, about which more in another entry.

    The foot is occasionally sore particularly when the dog stomps on the less-protected toe, but it's getting better. I really need new walking shoes, though. Details and longer-term stuff behind the cut (nothing gross)...
    but what about that longer-term stuff )
    drwex: (Troll)
    This contains discussion of minor surgery and infection. It's a follow-up to my last entry about infection. Some people don't like reading that stuff...
    nothing too gross, I promise )
    drwex: (WWFD)
    This entry discusses infection. I'm cut-tagging because [livejournal.com profile] taura_g reads my LJ and shouldn't get landmined.
    Not particularly icky medical stuff )
    drwex: (Troll)
    (another thing that got eaten by the can't-post bug; sorry if I've turned into Posty McSTFUAlready.)

    This trip I finished two items of media I think are quite good and worth talking about.
    The Information: A Story )
    Food, Inc. )
    drwex: (Troll)
    This will likely be my last "back" entry unless something drastic happens. The short version is that I appear to be on a slow course to mending. I have some permanent restrictions, some temporary, and more PT to do.
    Scary Neuro is not scary )
    Tuesday I got a massage from a woman who used a Thai technique I haven't experienced in quite some time. It's all forearms and elbows and goes quite deep. I had a lot of soreness after that but she did attack some of the knots pretty effectively. I may go see her again if I can figure out timing that works - getting to west Medford during the hours she works is not as easy as I'd like.
    Pain doc is not painful )
    It's a real relief to have some uniformity of opinion among the various providers - at this point Ortho, Neuro, and Pain are all saying the same thing so that's what I'm going with.

    Oh and Lahey sent me a "how did we do" questionnaire so I told them what I thought of the PT.
    drwex: (Troll)
    The last update was pretty goddamn depressing. Since then things have gotten better.
    Details )

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