although, I feel it year round. The moment I find out that I was excluded (it's generally hard not to figure out, since my social Venn Diagram is so vast & varied), it tends to shut me down enough that I will opt out of most social opportunities, because clearly everyone hates me. If some people include me, it's entirely out of pity. Finding out people lied to me, or dodged a conversation, can exponentially compound the depression.
(Therapy has historically worsened my social triggers, except in the sense that I can get so angry at the ineffectiveness of therapy I get caught up being upset at that instead. Ugh.)
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Date: 2015-12-18 05:08 am (UTC)The moment I find out that I was excluded (it's generally hard not to figure out, since my social Venn Diagram is so vast & varied), it tends to shut me down enough that I will opt out of most social opportunities, because clearly everyone hates me. If some people include me, it's entirely out of pity.
Finding out people lied to me, or dodged a conversation, can exponentially compound the depression.
(Therapy has historically worsened my social triggers, except in the sense that I can get so angry at the ineffectiveness of therapy I get caught up being upset at that instead. Ugh.)