The easiest way to write more
May. 12th, 2020 11:42 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
drwex...is to write more. So I'm going to write some words now and maybe write more words later. I also likely will do at least one music post.
How am I? Physically healthy. Anxious a lot. Crying now and then.
Still unemployed. No serious prospects on that front - came in second on Friday for the last place I'd had an actual interview with. They were very nice about it, but second is still no job. I've expanded my job search outside MA for the first time since I moved here. Right now I'm looking at NYC and Philly areas and I expect to expand down to DC and then add Seattle and Portland. Pygment has vetoed Silicon Valley.
Beyond that? I dunno, maybe Vancouver and see if emigration is possible? Austin and RTP are also things I might consider but so much of my stress is based on the politics and one-third of this country that is actively hostile to me and my family that I'm not sure it would help to move to either of those places.
We're actually doing OK at the moment. My 'ant' brain is the biggest part of me doing the "told you so" dance. Pygment's work is good, and I've got unemployment so all the bills are getting paid. We're pushing off or cutting expenses as we can. I'd like to be able to spend attention on things that are not money-related - that would certainly ease some of the stress.
Life With Teenagers remains an adventure, though a different sort from the friends I see who have younger children (sometimes literally) crawling over them. Thing 1 is a troglodyte. We see her only when she needs something, usually food. That needs to change but trying to have that conversation with her is also a big source of stress so I'm avoiding it, mostly.
Thing 2 is bored beyond words and resentful that I won't play more games with them. I've realized the fundamental difference in our styles: they want games where they get to press buttons constantly. I want games where I get to think and make choices about which button to press next. Neither is right or wrong - just incompatible.
This week I finally finished a thing that I should have done like 8 weeks back. Inside me the "yay" voices are drowned out by the "see that was easy why didn't you just do that two months ago?" voices.
And so it goes. How are you?
How am I? Physically healthy. Anxious a lot. Crying now and then.
Still unemployed. No serious prospects on that front - came in second on Friday for the last place I'd had an actual interview with. They were very nice about it, but second is still no job. I've expanded my job search outside MA for the first time since I moved here. Right now I'm looking at NYC and Philly areas and I expect to expand down to DC and then add Seattle and Portland. Pygment has vetoed Silicon Valley.
Beyond that? I dunno, maybe Vancouver and see if emigration is possible? Austin and RTP are also things I might consider but so much of my stress is based on the politics and one-third of this country that is actively hostile to me and my family that I'm not sure it would help to move to either of those places.
We're actually doing OK at the moment. My 'ant' brain is the biggest part of me doing the "told you so" dance. Pygment's work is good, and I've got unemployment so all the bills are getting paid. We're pushing off or cutting expenses as we can. I'd like to be able to spend attention on things that are not money-related - that would certainly ease some of the stress.
Life With Teenagers remains an adventure, though a different sort from the friends I see who have younger children (sometimes literally) crawling over them. Thing 1 is a troglodyte. We see her only when she needs something, usually food. That needs to change but trying to have that conversation with her is also a big source of stress so I'm avoiding it, mostly.
Thing 2 is bored beyond words and resentful that I won't play more games with them. I've realized the fundamental difference in our styles: they want games where they get to press buttons constantly. I want games where I get to think and make choices about which button to press next. Neither is right or wrong - just incompatible.
This week I finally finished a thing that I should have done like 8 weeks back. Inside me the "yay" voices are drowned out by the "see that was easy why didn't you just do that two months ago?" voices.
And so it goes. How are you?
