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[drwex]

I woke up crying from a dream of my mother. Every visit with her these days is hard and I'm ashamed I don't visit more. We visited three of the days we were in PA this time.

I could write a lot of detail but it comes down to "she's mostly not there anymore". There's this person who is paralyzed, unable to communicate, afraid a lot of the time, and somehow keeps on being alive. This person has my mother's memories, lots of which are bad. She talked more this visit than in the past. 99% of it was unintelligible. I recognized one bit was about "the war" and "rationing". She also used some words that made me think she was talking about a time when I was a child.

I wish this was peaceful. I wish this was over.


I'm trying to get out to see more live music. So far I've purchased tickets to three shows, one each in February, March, and April of next year. This makes me stupid levels of anxious - I find it hard to plan that far in advance or with that level of uncertainty. What if something comes up? What if we can't get sitting? Et cetera. I am not a big one for New Year's reflections or resolutions, but I want to do more of this.


I might be getting a little obsessed with London Grammar. This will be the April show, in case someone Boston-area wants to come with us.

https://soundcloud.com/londongrammar/london-grammar-nightcall-lg-re-edit
"Nightcall", re-edited by LG. I've been reading that London Grammar are being compared to The Xx, which I can sort of see but no. They've got their own unique sound and I hope it holds up live. Still, that kind of strong female-voiced intimate music is something I enjoy. I have been listening to live recordings of their stuff this morning and it's pretty good. I have high hopes.



Things are, generally, well. Pygment managed to high-speed smack a pothole in PA and dented a rim, which will likely be fully paid for via the extra warranty we got. Credit to points for that suggestion. Otherwise, car is pretty excellent. Got somewhere north of 45MPG even at too-high speeds on the trip down & back. Rein's was good; random sandwich shops were not.

The dog is now sort of known as "Princess Puppyface" and she is generally an all-around lovely happy-making thing. She's not 100% keeping my moods up, but they're much better with her around than not.

Work is mostly dead these two weeks. I am not looking forward to the impending snowstorm, which is likely to screw up my doctor's appointment. If I really didn't need to see the doc (I have a LONG list to discuss) I wouldn't care much.

And finally:

The future is all around us, waiting in moments of transition to be born in moments of revelation.

Comments

[lifecollage.livejournal.com]

Ach. *big pebble*

SMOOCH

[sweetmmeblue.livejournal.com]

YAY doing things that make you happy. I'm all for more live music with you.
YAY Princess Puppyface! She's been adorable and cuddling with the kids. She came and kept us company while we were cleaning.

*pebble for mom* I know.

[taura-g.livejournal.com]

*hugs*, luv. I am sorry. I know how hard that is.

Will be glad to see you tonight.

[ceo]

I completely hear you about your mother. gosling's father was in a similar state for most of his last year. *hugs*

[aelf.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry things remain difficult with your mom. I wish, well. Don't we all wish so many things.

I'm glad the dog has integrated so well into your family! :)

[rednikki.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry about your mom. I wish there was a way I, or any of us, could help.

[chienne-folle.livejournal.com]

*hug* That sounds so VERY difficult. I'm sorry you have this to go through.

Good for you, for planning things that make you happy.

And yay for dogs! There's a reason why my default icon is a dog. :-)

[intuition-ist.livejournal.com]

i've been really sad about the impending anniversary of my mom's death, but your "Thing 1" reminds me that her last days could have been worse. you have my sincerest sympathies.

I like the song you linked to. How representative is it of London Grammar's? It reminds me a little of October Project.

"The future is all around us, waiting in moments of transition to be born in moments of revelation" -- very very true. wanting a little more revelation in my life in 2014.

[drwex]

I'm not sure how to characterize representativeness. London Grammar have just put out their first full-length album. You can check out https://soundcloud.com/londongrammar where they've uploaded some of their previous EPs.

The comparison to October Project... I can see it. October Project in my brain is more piano and vocal harmonies. LG are more electronic and single-voiced. Maybe it's just the difference in styles of two decades?

[sariel-t.livejournal.com]

Where's that last line from? I love it.

[drwex]

It's from one of my favorite Babylon 5 episodes ever. I could link it but it's got MASSIVE plot spoilers. If you haven't seen B5 you should.

[sariel-t.livejournal.com]

Haven't, but no time for it.

[drwex]

It will be worth the time you make for it.

[sunstealer.livejournal.com]

I've been wanting to rewatch B5 for quite some time and hoping it turns up on streaming sometime soon. "May god stand between you and harm in all the dark places you must walk". Such a good show (with the possible exception of season 5).

I can see the October Project comparison as well. Her voice has a similar quality. I could see this singer covering "Bury My Lovely" very nicely.

also, *pebble*.

[celticdragonfly.livejournal.com]

much much sympathy. The situation with and for your mother sounds awful. I wish I could fix things for you. May you be given the strength to handle it all, and to be able to just stop and breathe a moment when you need to refocus.

[drwex]

Thank you, dear.