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drwexHave some bullet points, kind of in reverse chronological order...
- I have been saying "Only up from here" in response to New Year's greetings. I would like that to be true, though I realize how much of it is outside my control. On my whiteboard at work I write various design aphorisms - some places call them "mirror inspirations". One of those is currently "What would this look like if it was easy?" I'd like to figure out how to apply more of that to my life. Also, "The first step toward change is to become aware of your own bullshit." That very much appeals to me. I don't do New Year's resolutions, but these things are close enough for me.
- Once again we did a party at someone else's place on New Year's Eve, a favorite eventof mine. This time I made and brought an eggnog. Made from a recipe that claims to be George Washington's original, it is much less sweet and MUCH more boozy than most modern eggnogs. I was dubious about the entire project but letting the thing sit in the fridge for a day or so really improved it. The actual recipe calls for letting it sit 2-3 days and "Sample often", both likely excellent ideas.
The party was fun but much louder than I remembered. I danced less and spent more time in quieter space than usual for me. But that turned out OK. And I used my adult words, which likely won't get me anywhere but ferpetessakes this could stop being hard just any damn day now.
- Arisia is ANY DAY NOW and almost everything I'm responsible for there is on metaphorical fire. I explained to Pygment that I had actually planned for several of these catastrophes to happen, but had expected them (based on agreements that other people made with me) to happen 4-5 days earlier so I would've had time to resolve them. Instead I got to spend New Year's Day in panic mode and triaging like a triaging thing.
- We survived Xmas with family and I did NOT yell at my father for aggressively mis-gendering my children. I was upset (though less so than Pygment) and contemplated just saying "fukkit" and going home. I was mostly baffled, to be honest, because Dad rolled with the "we're poly" disclosure just fine. This was... sub-par. We got to see their new senior living digs, which are pretty nice.
I also spent significant time talking with my brother and sis-in-law, both of whom have mellowed a lot. I usually only see them once a year and conversations are difficult. Even in email we chat only briefly. Brother has gone through a couple of traumatic health issues in the past few years and was open to discussing both the issues and the associated trauma. That surprised me. We've also been jointly doing family/estate planning and using more adult words about scary things. Good but, y'know, scary.
- Sleep hasn't been great, either at home or in the hotel on the road. At least at home I can move to the couch and snore like a dubstep buzzsaw without worrying about waking up the entire family. We'll likely test out a different hotel next time. This one had, effectively, zero things Pygment could eat. We did find a very nice artisinal breakfast place that we enjoyed so not all was lost. My best guess is I have a sinus infection. I could in theory go get antibiotics for that but only about 50% of sinus infections are bacterial and I'm not sure I want to mess up my guts that badly for the coin-flip chance that it's not a virus.
Anyway, that's a pseudo-random sample of what's going on with me the last couple weeks. How about you?
- I have been saying "Only up from here" in response to New Year's greetings. I would like that to be true, though I realize how much of it is outside my control. On my whiteboard at work I write various design aphorisms - some places call them "mirror inspirations". One of those is currently "What would this look like if it was easy?" I'd like to figure out how to apply more of that to my life. Also, "The first step toward change is to become aware of your own bullshit." That very much appeals to me. I don't do New Year's resolutions, but these things are close enough for me.
- Once again we did a party at someone else's place on New Year's Eve, a favorite eventof mine. This time I made and brought an eggnog. Made from a recipe that claims to be George Washington's original, it is much less sweet and MUCH more boozy than most modern eggnogs. I was dubious about the entire project but letting the thing sit in the fridge for a day or so really improved it. The actual recipe calls for letting it sit 2-3 days and "Sample often", both likely excellent ideas.
The party was fun but much louder than I remembered. I danced less and spent more time in quieter space than usual for me. But that turned out OK. And I used my adult words, which likely won't get me anywhere but ferpetessakes this could stop being hard just any damn day now.
- Arisia is ANY DAY NOW and almost everything I'm responsible for there is on metaphorical fire. I explained to Pygment that I had actually planned for several of these catastrophes to happen, but had expected them (based on agreements that other people made with me) to happen 4-5 days earlier so I would've had time to resolve them. Instead I got to spend New Year's Day in panic mode and triaging like a triaging thing.
- We survived Xmas with family and I did NOT yell at my father for aggressively mis-gendering my children. I was upset (though less so than Pygment) and contemplated just saying "fukkit" and going home. I was mostly baffled, to be honest, because Dad rolled with the "we're poly" disclosure just fine. This was... sub-par. We got to see their new senior living digs, which are pretty nice.
I also spent significant time talking with my brother and sis-in-law, both of whom have mellowed a lot. I usually only see them once a year and conversations are difficult. Even in email we chat only briefly. Brother has gone through a couple of traumatic health issues in the past few years and was open to discussing both the issues and the associated trauma. That surprised me. We've also been jointly doing family/estate planning and using more adult words about scary things. Good but, y'know, scary.
- Sleep hasn't been great, either at home or in the hotel on the road. At least at home I can move to the couch and snore like a dubstep buzzsaw without worrying about waking up the entire family. We'll likely test out a different hotel next time. This one had, effectively, zero things Pygment could eat. We did find a very nice artisinal breakfast place that we enjoyed so not all was lost. My best guess is I have a sinus infection. I could in theory go get antibiotics for that but only about 50% of sinus infections are bacterial and I'm not sure I want to mess up my guts that badly for the coin-flip chance that it's not a virus.
Anyway, that's a pseudo-random sample of what's going on with me the last couple weeks. How about you?
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Date: 2018-01-02 10:55 pm (UTC)I'm sorry your father is being aggressively wrong about gender.
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Date: 2018-01-02 11:05 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-01-03 10:13 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-01-03 12:27 pm (UTC)Arisia...
Date: 2018-01-04 04:22 am (UTC)I was SO TEMPTED to apply to vend, but it is a 17 hour drive from here to Boston... and winter weather being what it is... yeah. I chickened out.
One of these years I will do a "come back tour" and plan to make an adventure of it!
Re: Arisia...
Date: 2018-01-04 01:30 pm (UTC)