Journaling project, Day 31

[drwex]

Give yourself the space to hear your own voice—your own soul. Too many of us listen to the noise of the world and get lost in the crowd. Stand strong! Live by choice, not by chance. Work to grow, not compete. Choose to listen to yourself, not the jumbled opinions of everyone else.

What has your inner voice been trying to tell you today?

First of all, I don't believe in souls. Second, what is this singular inner voice you speak of? My inner voices are a chorus. A Greek chorus that trainwrecked with a commedia troupe. When one of the others gets ahold of the speaking controls it's hilarious for other people and frequently embarrassing for me. On the plus side, those bits of me often work on problems and things without other bits of me having to focus conscious attention on those things.

I can see how this prompt might resonate with someone who doesn't have a strong self-image. I've met people whose selves are much more chameleon-like, who adapt and blend into whatever context they're in. Protective coloring, of a sort, but also challenging for others to know where they stand when facing a person who changes seemingly every day. I don't think anyone has ever doubted where they stand with me, and my animal image is much more "bull" than "chameleon". So in terms of hearing my inner voices, I feel like I do a good job. What I _do_ about them is another story.

Today my inner voices are telling me "ow" because I had dental surgery last night and it's time to take more meds. Also ow because my arthritis does not like this humidity. My inner voices are also up in arms a bit because I got some bad news this morning on a front I'd been hopeful about. Those include the "told you so" and "this is what happens when you want things" voices but fuck those guys anyway.

Comments

[mizarchivist]

If you're lucky the chorus will sing to you in harmony, but that's a rarity.

Totally fuck those guys. They can go sit on the Group W Bench with my "but who would ever really like you?"

[drwex]

<3

[gale_storm]

"My inner voices are a chorus. A Greek chorus that trainwrecked with a commedia troupe."

What sprang to my mind on reading this was one of the songs from 'Kiss Me Kate,' 'We Open in Venice."