It's a weird day
Jul. 9th, 2014 03:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
It's a weird day when multiple people take the time to thank me for being the voice of reason. You all who know me can stop laughing now. Any minute. I'll wait.
I've been posting a good deal in both
sunspiral's LJ and
shadesong's LJ. I'm glad to be able to have discussions with both of them. This is where I stand:
- Judah is a self-admitted abuser and has a restraining order against him for domestic violence and other related offenses. As such, I do not want him at my house and I am probably not comfortable going to other parties where he is welcome. That might change in the future; or, maybe not. I'm in new territory here and the Magic 8 Ball is cloudy.
- My comfort is about me and my loved ones. It's not a standard for other private individuals to follow. I am not the boss of you (unless you're one of my kids and they have some vehement objections to my Boss status anyway).
- When I go to a party I expect to follow the hosts' rules. When people come to my parties I'd like them to follow my rules, which are often summarized as "don't piss off the hosts." Part of why Judah is not welcome is because I'm so angry at what he did. I want him to be banned from other events where I might attend because I have my visceral, fist-clenching furious reaction to imagining someone doing to my loved ones what he did to Shira.
- I recognize that my response to the situation is seated in a position of vast privilege, including white, able, cis-male, wealth privilege. I also don't know what to do with that, except try to keep it in mind when I write or speak.
- There are people I like, love, and respect, on all sides of this debate. I am struggling to understand how these people I respect have reasoned to the positions they hold. I think we have now a large rift in the circle of people I like and if people do not understand each other there is no hope for dialog. Because this is all about me, I feel like I want to understand all the sides first.
- I am currently using the theoretical basis of framing ( https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Framing_(social_sciences) ) to think about this. I believe we have a framing problem, not a Rashomon problem. In Rashomon, every witness tells their own version of events, and no two of them agree on all the facts. In this situation I think pretty much everyone agrees on the facts, but is using different framings to interpret those facts.
- I have a long and friendly relationship with Scott & Rachel. I have a much shorter acquaintanceship with Shira and even less so with Adam but I'd like to think that Shira and I are at least on friendly terms.
- I am intensely sad that this situation has now become a conflict between these households when I think that conflict was entirely avoidable. I see people responding to perceived attacks on each of these people, being protective of the people they love. I understand that, deeply. I continue to believe that this level of self- and other-protectiveness is preventing many people from recognizing the framing differences.
- We accuse each other of lies, deceptions, exaggerations, denials, etc. But I think these things are all distractions from the core issues. I care about how you treat the people who commit these violent acts; how you treat the people who are the victims of these acts; how you treat the people who have to deal with the consequences of these acts; and how you treat the people who are trying to navigate these unknown and shark-infested waters. I reject any formulation that says, "It's simple, just XYZ." It's not simple.
- I would like to be able to focus on the problems that having Judah in the social circle brings and how we can deal with that. Unfortunately the grounds have shifted and people are choosing up sides in a wholly unnecessary war. Perhaps I'm falling into a geek fallacy, but I also see this as an important test case. If we cannot find a way to work with each other - despite our different frameworks - to deal with an abuser and social gatherings then we have a pretty deep problem.
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- Judah is a self-admitted abuser and has a restraining order against him for domestic violence and other related offenses. As such, I do not want him at my house and I am probably not comfortable going to other parties where he is welcome. That might change in the future; or, maybe not. I'm in new territory here and the Magic 8 Ball is cloudy.
- My comfort is about me and my loved ones. It's not a standard for other private individuals to follow. I am not the boss of you (unless you're one of my kids and they have some vehement objections to my Boss status anyway).
- When I go to a party I expect to follow the hosts' rules. When people come to my parties I'd like them to follow my rules, which are often summarized as "don't piss off the hosts." Part of why Judah is not welcome is because I'm so angry at what he did. I want him to be banned from other events where I might attend because I have my visceral, fist-clenching furious reaction to imagining someone doing to my loved ones what he did to Shira.
- I recognize that my response to the situation is seated in a position of vast privilege, including white, able, cis-male, wealth privilege. I also don't know what to do with that, except try to keep it in mind when I write or speak.
- There are people I like, love, and respect, on all sides of this debate. I am struggling to understand how these people I respect have reasoned to the positions they hold. I think we have now a large rift in the circle of people I like and if people do not understand each other there is no hope for dialog. Because this is all about me, I feel like I want to understand all the sides first.
- I am currently using the theoretical basis of framing ( https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Framing_(social_sciences) ) to think about this. I believe we have a framing problem, not a Rashomon problem. In Rashomon, every witness tells their own version of events, and no two of them agree on all the facts. In this situation I think pretty much everyone agrees on the facts, but is using different framings to interpret those facts.
- I have a long and friendly relationship with Scott & Rachel. I have a much shorter acquaintanceship with Shira and even less so with Adam but I'd like to think that Shira and I are at least on friendly terms.
- I am intensely sad that this situation has now become a conflict between these households when I think that conflict was entirely avoidable. I see people responding to perceived attacks on each of these people, being protective of the people they love. I understand that, deeply. I continue to believe that this level of self- and other-protectiveness is preventing many people from recognizing the framing differences.
- We accuse each other of lies, deceptions, exaggerations, denials, etc. But I think these things are all distractions from the core issues. I care about how you treat the people who commit these violent acts; how you treat the people who are the victims of these acts; how you treat the people who have to deal with the consequences of these acts; and how you treat the people who are trying to navigate these unknown and shark-infested waters. I reject any formulation that says, "It's simple, just XYZ." It's not simple.
- I would like to be able to focus on the problems that having Judah in the social circle brings and how we can deal with that. Unfortunately the grounds have shifted and people are choosing up sides in a wholly unnecessary war. Perhaps I'm falling into a geek fallacy, but I also see this as an important test case. If we cannot find a way to work with each other - despite our different frameworks - to deal with an abuser and social gatherings then we have a pretty deep problem.
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Date: 2014-07-10 03:37 pm (UTC)How I read that statement is "you have to rape more than one person". Due to not regarding him as "a danger to people other than Shira".
It's been established that he has a classic escalating DV pattern that has been ongoing for ten years. He has raped more than one person (the other person has not come forward, but has written a statement for my lawyer). It's very well established that most rapists are serial rapists (http://yesmeansyesblog.wordpress.com/2009/11/12/meet-the-predators/). I don't know how anyone can assume that someone with Judah's history and MO could possibly not continue to be a danger. If he doesn't rape anyone ever again, he would be a huge statistical anomaly. Think horses, not zebras.
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Date: 2014-07-10 03:50 pm (UTC)It's been established that [Judah] has a classic escalating DV pattern
Substitute "It's been established" with "I have evidence". Without questioning you or your evidence, can you see how others - especially the party hosts - would not have such evidence prior to the BoS party? And even with such evidence, there are at least two other explanations I've heard that account for this.
I hope Pygment won't smack me for violating confidence, since she chose not to dive into this and deleted her own post, but she's stated to me that there are multiple models that can be applied to patterns such as Judah has shown. Among other things, those models predict different behavior toward others. She also doesn't have access to the evidence you have; perhaps if she did she'd change her belief. But crucially, I don't think S&R have that evidence, nor do they have your training, nor do they have your past history.
What they do have is their own experiences and history. Scott has repeatedly referred to past situations and it's clear to me that he's using those to model this situation. What I hear you saying is that either those past situations were not handled the way you'd've liked them to be, or they're not appropriate models for this situation. Does that seem accurate to you?
I don't know how anyone can assume that someone with Judah's history and MO could possibly not continue to be a danger
Here you're asking me to defend a conclusion I don't believe - I think this is similar to our discussion right after the event. I believe Judah is sufficiently dangerous that I don't want him around. I ALSO believe that people who are sane and logical can come to different conclusions. Being mistaken is not the same as being insane or illogical.
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Date: 2014-07-10 04:07 pm (UTC)The second and third parts of that are, of course, true. The first part - I did write about it extensively. I don't have time to dig up links right now (I'm getting ready for a con that starts this evening), but the posts are tagged with Judah's name.
I do know that Rachel is aware of stuff like the Meet the Predators post and the MOs of serial offenders because I presented it to her and other Arisia and Boskone staff during a BARCC workshop that she requested.
Scott has repeatedly referred to past situations and it's clear to me that he's using those to model this situation. What I hear you saying is that either those past situations were not handled the way you'd've liked them to be, or they're not appropriate models for this situation. Does that seem accurate to you?
I don't know enough about the past situations to judge. The key thing I don't know, so I can't know whether to disagree with Scott's decisions on them, is that I don't know if anyone in those prior situations was a violent offender. I believe that if one party is a violent offender and the other their victim, the logical and responsible choice would be to disinvite the violent offender. However, I do not know if that's the case in their prior RO situations. If that was the case, yes, I'd say their way of handling it was irresponsible, but I do not have sufficient data to make that call. By a long shot.
Another factor there is that Scott claims that both parties negotiated who'd go to which event, which is odd, as an RO forbids all contact, and therefore any such communication would be in violation of the RO. So... that's curious.
Being mistaken is not the same as being insane or illogical.
I've never said "insane" in this conversation, FTR. I do believe that someone can be mistaken without also acting illogically, but I don't see that as the case here.
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Date: 2014-07-10 05:24 pm (UTC)I do know that Rachel is aware of stuff like the Meet the Predators post and the MOs of serial offenders because I presented it to her and other Arisia and Boskone staff during a BARCC workshop that she requested.
Understood. I wonder if she feels, given what evidence she has, that those things are applicable here. She's been notably silent in these public conversations so I'm reluctant to make assumptions about what she knows, remembers, or believes.
Scott claims that both parties negotiated who'd go to which event
He has clarified that they negotiated through third parties other than himself and conveyed a joint agreement to him.
I've never said "insane" in this conversation, FTR
True. You referred to "contortions of logic". I was writing in haste.
I do believe that someone can be mistaken without also acting illogically, but I don't see that as the case here.
So this brings me back to the question of whether calling Scott's statements "lies" versus "mistakes" advances your greater goals. I dunno; I can see value in both approaches.
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Date: 2014-07-10 05:35 pm (UTC)As do I.
She's been notably silent in these public conversations so I'm reluctant to make assumptions about what she knows, remembers, or believes.
Agreed. I can only state that she was, at one point, aware.
He has clarified that they negotiated through third parties other than himself and conveyed a joint agreement to him.
Which is also a violation of the restraining order, actually. I really do need to get Adam to scan mine... But the person who has the RO against them is specifically prohibited from contacting the other party even via a third party, even to respond to a question the other party asks.
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Date: 2014-07-10 05:55 pm (UTC)That is not universally true. At one point I was asked to act as such a communication third party between a couple involved in an unpleasant divorce(*). There are other situations I'm aware of where third parties are necessary for couples with children, etc. Also, times change. What was the norm 10 years ago is probably not the norm today.
(*) no violence there but a concern about shared finances. She didn't want him emptying their joint bank accounts, selling off shared household property, etc.
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Date: 2014-07-10 06:06 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2014-07-12 11:09 am (UTC)That said, I agree that most people (including myself) have little to no experience with these things and it might be worthwhile to educate ourselves. But that's an obligation on us, not on Song.
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Date: 2014-07-12 12:34 pm (UTC)(also, I now see a stupid typo in my earlier comment, which I can't fix now that you've replied to it)
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Date: 2014-07-10 04:27 pm (UTC)A lie implies a willful untruth. I don't believe Scott is lying; I believe he may be mistaken.
But more to the point, I don't see the value in continuing the you-vs-him conflict because it's a distraction from what we all agree needs to be dealt with.
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Date: 2014-07-10 04:32 pm (UTC)I don't know how long he'd been there when she arrived - could've been a matter of minutes - but Scott could not have gotten credible information about my lack of attendance until she got there.
I do agree it's a distraction and would rather focus on making safer communities, but that's hard when one party persists in stating bald-faced lies and I keep having to correct it to what actually happened. It gives me the impression that our goals are not his.
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Date: 2014-07-10 04:36 pm (UTC)one party persists in stating bald-faced lies
Again, I can write a sentence that says "one party persists in being mistaken". Or "being wrong."
Damn I'm making tone/language arguments with you again. I know it, and I'm sorry for it. But I also know how Scott thinks because he thinks a lot like I do. I think you have the ability to (help) shift the focus, if that's what you want to do. But again, I'm seriously not trying to tell you how you should speak about your abuser.
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Date: 2014-07-10 04:43 pm (UTC)When I see him claiming that he had "credible information" that he had absolutely no way of having... yes, he's wrong about having the information he did not have. But he is choosing to present information he did not have to justify inviting a rapist to his part. The deliberate choice to use a fictional pretext here is what causes me to say "lie".
And that's the version of events that's actually most complimentary to them: their story that they were told I wouldn't be there, did not contact me to verify this, and invited a known rapist.
That's concerning all by itself. Even before you realize that they were told no such thing.
I'm not sure how I can help shift the focus here. I'm conversing honestly, calmly, and logically (with some understandable frustration), and he keeps restating things that are already proven to be factually incorrect, in one case making an entirely separate post to do so. I don't think I'm the one who is most in need of a tone shift here.
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Date: 2014-07-10 05:51 pm (UTC)Yes. I think it's a matter of intent, which is to say that a lie is intended to deceive.
We can dismiss "mistaken", I feel, because you can't be mistaken about whether you contacted me or spoke to the one other person who had that information (for completeness's sake, Andy knew as well, but he was with Mink).
Here I'd slightly disagree. If Scott spoke to someone else who had that information, and that person conveyed an answer to him that Scott took as authoritative, then he would be mistaken. This is my sense of his side of the situation.
he is choosing to present information he did not have to justify inviting a rapist to his part. The deliberate choice to use a fictional pretext here is what causes me to say "lie".
I would write a sentence that said, "He is choosing to present information he believed he had to justify..." If that sentence is allowed, then we can stay in the realm of mistake.
their story that they were told I wouldn't be there, did not contact me to verify this, and invited a known rapist. That's concerning all by itself. Even before you realize that they were told no such thing.
Right! Yes, exactly! This is precisely why I was trying to suggest that focusing on the notion of "lie" doesn't help and does distract. There are reasons why you concede points you don't believe in courtrooms or in arguments/negotiation and I see this as a point you can concede with no loss and with the gain of re-focusing things on the important question, which is, not to put it too bluntly, WTF??
I've been discussing over in Scott's post with Xtina about how I feel like we are much less likely to make progress toward our shared goals if we cannot re-establish basic trust. Both you and he are significantly influential in the community; a continued divide pushes people toward poles and choosing sides.
I don't think I'm the one who is most in need of a tone shift here.
Yeah, I'm workin' on that. Never said you were but since you pointed to the issue when responding to
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Date: 2014-07-10 06:05 pm (UTC)There are reasons why you concede points you don't believe in courtrooms or in arguments/negotiation and I see this as a point you can concede with no loss and with the gain of re-focusing things on the important question, which is, not to put it too bluntly, WTF??
Hm. I think this, right here, is a point where we're operating at cross purposes.
One of my goals, here and in life, is to say nothing that is not true, and to not allow myself to be represented in ways that are not true.
I feel that conceding a point I don't believe is a form of lying, and I'm unwilling to do so. My insistence on the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but may make me difficult to negotiate with at times, but it's also very important to me and my character. Starting to not challenge lies about me - especially now - is not only hurtful, but also potentially damaging in my court case.
I agree that WTF is the important question. I also feel like I've been letting myself get shit on kinda a lot - the last few days are not the only times I've had to contend with bad stuff and comport myself politely regardless at great cost to me. I've done a lot of fading back so things get focused on his behaviors and not on me. Because you don't have to like me in order to agree that rape is bad.
At the same time, I think that makes people forget that I am the survivor of two violent crimes at Judah's hands that traumatized me deeply, and that these conversations are difficult and painful and I have a right to protect myself during them. Part of protecting myself is not letting the lies proliferate.
I'm doing my best to disappear myself so we can focus on the very important issue of community safety, but there's a certain point past which I can't disappear any further than I already have. I'm doing my best to balance all of this, but I may be doing too well, in that it may not be sufficiently apparent that I am in these discussions at great cost to myself.
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Date: 2014-07-10 06:26 pm (UTC)However, reading through the tons of side (or not-side) writing going on here and elsewhere, this really seems to be what everyone is coming down to. Who is really 'correct,' and what the other party must then know/feel... and I guess this is what comes back to Wex's framing discussion.
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Date: 2014-07-10 06:33 pm (UTC)His accusation is "Shira is now attempting to deny that she made a threat to bring the police to our house during the BOS party. Some of this has involved word games, some of this has been completely untrue statements. The actual and complete line in the text sent to a third party who was at our house that night was "Okay. On my way with the restraining order; police to follow."
My response is and was "I did text that, and have never claimed that I didn't."
So... that kinda proves I'm not lying. Really, really clearly.
And the fact that Scott is making additional posts and comments claiming that I didn't say what I clearly said and claiming that I said completely different things...
*spreads hands* I leave this as an exercise to the reader.
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Date: 2014-07-10 07:49 pm (UTC)Nod. Thank you for explaining that.
you don't have to like me in order to agree that rape is bad.
Yeah, I tried to put that point in my first post. Blame-shifting is totally a thing and it's totally happening. I am... somewhat at a loss as to what to do. But I'm continuing to think about it as an important problem to solve.
I'm doing my best to disappear myself so we can focus on the very important issue of community safety,
Wow I hope you don't have to do that. What I'd like to disappear is the conflict between you and Scott. Where the hell did I leave that magic wand?
OK, seriously for a second: both of you have a lot of throw-weight in the community. It's different kinds, but it's there. If you disappear yourself then I'm not certain the issue will shift to "what do we do about this violent person in our midst" but rather it'll shift to Scott. He's certainly gotten a large rasher of what-for in his own post - there are people talking there who I think are pointed and effective. But without you and your views it shifts to them-vs-Scott which is even farther from a solution.
Or, maybe not. Maybe this is like when your car gets stuck in the mud and you get a bunch of people to push and it moves a bit then falls back, so everyone pushes again. Repeat enough times and the car moves. So maybe what's needed here is enough people pushing one thing in one direction for some time.
Watch me flail. Watch me flail a whole lot.
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Date: 2014-07-10 07:58 pm (UTC)I don't know what the best path is to the end goal right now.
I'm glad I have a con this weekend so I can - and have to - step back from this. I hope that'll help.
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Date: 2014-07-12 03:57 pm (UTC)Wex, thank you VERY much for making this post. I could not bring myself to wade into the agida of Scott's. I did see his post to polyboston.
--gingi
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